Meet Sarah Payne

I set out to build things. Bridges. Roads. Structures that would stand long after I was gone. So I became a Civil Engineer. And for a long time, that was enough.

Engineering took me everywhere. New cities. New projects. I learned to work hard, to push forward. I learned to prove myself, over and over. I developed habits that helped me cope, and called those normal. Because in that world, they were.

Eventually something started to crack. I was flailing. Working on a project that needed more support than anyone around me had capacity to give. I was stressed. I was unhappy. I was complaining in ways I did not recognise as my own voice.

And then, the restructure came. And I lost out.

But here is the thing about hitting a wall. Sometimes the wall is the most important thing that ever happens to you. Because while I was unhappy, while I was stressed and struggling and wondering why nothing felt right, something else was happening. Something quiet. Something persistent. Something that I can only describe as the truest part of me refusing to be silent anymore.

I had been collecting certifications for some time. Aromatherapy. Reiki. The Untangled Method. I did not fully understand why I was drawn to them. I just knew I was. And I know now.

That something in me already knew I was meant for more than the life I was living. That the path I was on was not my aligned path. That something needed to change.

The Untangled Method was the thing that cracked me open. Going through that process, feeling what it does at the subconscious level, I understood, for the first time, with complete clarity, the corporate world was not for me.

It had never been for me. I had been performing a version of myself that the world found acceptable, while the real version waited quietly for permission to exist. I could feel my aligned path. I could almost touch it. And I was terrified.

Too terrified to leap. Until the leap was made for me.

My husband died in a road accident. Tragically. Suddenly. Without warning. And in the midst of the most devastating grief I have ever known, I had to decide. What was best for me? What was best for my boys? What kind of life I was going to build from the rubble of the one I had been living?

It was the clearest decision I have ever mad. I said goodbye to the corporate world. I chose my truest path. My aligned path. The path that had been waiting for me all along, while I spent years being too afraid to walk it.